Friday, June 5, 2015

In Thought

     First off I want to start off by saying my mom's mastectomy was a success. It's been six long months of chemo for her, but she finally had the surgery last month and she seems to be improving. Now onto the twenty percent project. So, I've been thinking about asking my teacher to change the topic of my twenty percent project because it's starting to prove a large problem for my english grade, but it  is too late. Life is a chain reaction of choices some stand strong never to fall and others bring down the rest of your life. Every decision you made from the moment out of the womb to this moment right now affects your future. The future is not something I really thought about until the first year of middle school, but once you realize how little time you have left nothing is ever the same. I mean how long do you have live on this earth? one hundred years at most which in the grand scheme of time is just a spec. This decision of what I did for the twenty percent project is bringing forth the domino effect in my set. Today I really just want to write about life and my final presentation for my twenty percent project.
     Every moment you are alive you are in a war. Although it may not be a war with weapons it is a war between you within yourself and your surroundings. Every conscious decision made requires great thought and that in itself is battel in the grand war that lasts until you are brought into eternity. The decision to do the righteous  rather than the immoral. The smallest corruption creates a grander evil and feeds the greatest evil bringing this world down in fire and in that battle the enemy wins. I know how hard life can be, but it's also really amazing you just have to pick your moments. Life is a series of strategic plans just as is war and they both can only end in death on earth, but the decisions made affect you and the world around far longer than ever thought. Think about any war like World War II for example, the countries that joined in last had the least casualties as well as the least effect in the country itself because they weren't in the war long enough to be fully corrupted. People who do not stay for long are left in what they were, the incorruption that was because of the nothing seen. For the past two days i've been trying to strategically plan for the twenty percent final presentation, but because Jamine and my time management problems there has been very little learned. We changed our action plan so many times I no longer remember what the original action was so I've been thinking of just reflecting on our project and what we have done wrong as well as what we have done right in this project.  As we get older we realize we are weak barely able to stand on our own because of this war we have been fighting. I feel mentally weak at this moment because I'm not entirely sure of what to do for the twenty percent final project
 
     What is the meaning of life? No one knows because it is a question that's answer differs with the person it is asked and even then no one truly knows. What are we but lost. We walk around blind, unaware of what might come next. I feel like I'm walking around blind because of everything that is being put on to me at this time; I have finals coming up a history project, auto which is a whole other thing in itself, and this. We don't know what will come or when it will go, all we know is now and what was. We have this idea that we have everything under control, but that is so much further than the truth then fraudulence. We all want a sense of security, but the truth is there is no security on this earth, whatever you are, you are in front of everyone there is no hiding what you are and there is no shame in who you are. So who are you? There are so many factors in play in our lives and all are driven to create one result, one moment in which return is unattainable. I know that there is no security on earth, but I can't help in believing in something. I believed in the Twenty Percent project but now I don't; I don't even believe in the final presentation. This world is nothing yet it is everything because all we do is done here, but in the end we either make our mark or are left as dust never to be known again. I know I am nothing, but we all change whether we know it or not we constantly change, in form, in thought, in life, etc. and that change may lead into something more. The choices we make leads to those changes and into our future whatever it may be.

     In conclusion life is a choice and I've made many choices in my life, some stand strong and others fall. The twenty percent project was a choice that has fallen deep and I'm worried the presentation will be the same. That choice will affect my life forever in ways still unknown. I know I'm not in control of my future and of the change that is yet to come, but I know it is coming and it is great. This great change is not only for me but for all people in this world and I sincerely believe there is no such  thing as a nothing if you try hard enough. Everyone is born with talents or gifts that they should use a strengthen because it was given to them. No you cannot say you have no talents because that's not true, you just have yet to discover it whatever it is and it, it is great. Sorry for confusing you if I did because I often confuse my friends by just simply being, anyway I want to hear what you think of life and what I should do for the final presentation if there is anyone out there reading this.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

A look into My Past and My Present


          


       Hey, I  miss writing, but I have nothing to say. Since we have started the twenty percent project my english grade has declined because Jasmine has rejected me so many times that I've just given up on the project and my blogs. I have nothing to write about, nothing to do, and let's not forget that we never found a mentor even after asking probably a majority of the music population around us. This project has turned from an opportunity to my worst nightmare. Ever since I had started middle school, my focus has been on improvement and It's been ok until now. When I was in elementary school I used to be in a program called RSP then when I entered middle school I started to improve my work habits due to study skills which I had the opportunity to get out of after the first semester of seventh grade, but I rejected it because it was an enjoyable class in fact I enjoyed it so much I also took it in eighth grade and I can say with all honesty that class was my turning point. Then when I entered high school I entered regular classes which I couldn't be happier about and gradually I'm just trying to move up because my major goal is to get into a good four year college straight out of high school. I really want to ask my teachers for recommendation letters, but I'm a little too shy because I fear rejection. My project has been the one major failure I've had in a long time and that upsets me. So if you don't mind in this post I'm going to write about past years and how this project either contradicts with or complies with those years.
        I'm going to sum up elementary school in one paragraph. During elementary school my mom and I were going through a rough phase with my dad in fact at a point I found them committing hand to hand combat in the garage and at another point my mom and I didn't have a house. Because I had low grades do to many missing assignments, my mom took me to a psychologist who diagnosed me with depression which put me in RSP and helped my mom win me in my parents divorce. throughout my elementary school experience I did not have the best grades because I was so unorganized that I kept on losing my assignments, but as God and my mom as my witnesses I did do the assignment and when I had a chance to make them up I sometimes woke up all night to finish something that might have otherwise taken a week to complete. Ever since then I've been trying not to leave everything until the last minute yet I still do. The fact that I still get away with this baffles me. I need to learn responsibility which in all honesty I do not have. Anyway those five years in elementary school were filled with failures just like this project and it is severely dropping my grade because of the organization of time that Jasmine and I have going on.
                                                        
     In sixth grade I started to improve but not by a significant amount. When I finally reached middle school I had a goal in mind and that was college so naturally I improved because I had a reason to. I was still in RSP and was forcibly and understandably put in study skills. Because my grades were in order I had the opportunity to leave study skills, but I didn't because achievement was my drive. My electives those two years were Public Speaking which I hated but took because it could help me with my shyness, Drama which may have been the most fun I've ever had, Woodshop which was an extremely wonderful learning experience that I wanted to continue in highschool, but my mom was too worried about it so I am taking auto right now and in all honesty it's not as fun, and Study Skills which was a wonderful class because I could finish my assignments in that class. My two RSP classes were english and math in both seventh and eighth grade. On back to school night in seventh grade my english teacher told my mom that I had depression, which I had honestly not felt until that summer in which I'm pretty sure I lost some weight because of how much I cried and how dehydrated I was because of it. I'm starting to go back because this project is killing me inside. This depression on the other hand made me religious which I'm still grateful for yet this 20% project is doing nothing for me but corrupting my mental health. I lost all the effects and results of the depression the moment I entered eighth grade. My grades were not as good as eighth grade, but it seemed like an accomplished year nevertheless. Unlike my english project middle school seemed somewhat of a success even through it all. 
       When I finally reached high school I was so psyched only to find out they lost my transcripts which was also somewhat of an opportunity. I let the psychologist pick my classes based on past grades, my only request was that I be put in the lowest math class because math is my worst subject. I honestly severely  regret asking that because it brought down my science which is my best subject as well as the most fun one and it's always been that way even in my first years of elementary school. The 20 % project is somewhat like my math class because it holds me back in a way that makes me regret my decision. In tenth grade so this year we started our blogs during first semester which encouraged me to take MUN in which I am a little intimidated by the members on the other hand I'm also a little intimidated because both groups are extremely smart an I feel like an idiot at times. To add to my uncertainty my mom and I found out that my mom has breast cancer stage three and that's something that I don't like to admit, but I write anything and everything on this blog because I know no one reads it. I actually don't try as much as it appears because I'm actually pretty lazy and half of my day consists of netflix which proves I need an academic challenge, but the twenty percent project proves to be to much because of a lack of time. Something random is a lot of people don't realize that in my culture we are not allowed to touch the opposite gender not even a pat of support, but we can handshake so that's peculiar.   
 
     In conclusion life can be rollercoaster of emotions and events. Although there are many bad situation you always  gain something good out of it which is why I'm sure that even though the 20 % project has not been the best thing in the world I'll gain something great out of it. In life there are two paths one that is straight and another that is full of bumps and hills, although the straight road seems easier to take the imperfect road leads to a strong personality and a feeling of self assertion as well as it being able to build character meaning the problems you have go away, but they leave you with a life lesson never to be forgotten. Always remember that there is a plan awaiting you and everything that happens is for a reason which is why I don't view my problems as a roadblock, but instead an opportunity that I can take and make grow into something that is unlike anything thought to be true. Peace to you all.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

       O joyous day how lovely it has been. I finally met up with Jasmine today and we studied the types of notes and the amount of beats they have, but that's not enough for a whole post so this week my post shall be three  paragraphs long. I will write about the types of notes in my second paragraph. I'm constantly wondering how it is that a person can do so many things at once while I can barely finish my homework under two to three hours because I'm so distracted by the technology around me, it's kind of crazy. I'm so preoccupied by something that is so meaningless and that is not only hurting my grade on this project, but also deciding my future lifestyle yet I never give into this year, messing up my life.
       There are quarter notes, eighth notes, sixteenth notes, half notes and whole notes. Quarter notes are a black circle and they have a line going straight up from that filled in circle and are equal to one beat. Eighth notes also include a black circle and have a line going straight up from that filled in circle but they also have one tail and are equal the beats of half of that of a quarter notes. When eighth notes are paired there s a bar in between two of them which equals an and. Sixteenth notes once more has a black circle and they have a line going straight up, but they have two tails and are half of that of a sixteenth note. While sixteenth notes are grouped they are connected by two bars in between the notes. A half note has a white/ blank circle and a line going straight up from the white circle and is equal to two beats. A whole note just has a white circle and is equal to four beats.
    
In conclusion reading notes have not been as easy to learn as I thought it would be and has taken much longer than I thought because of Jasmine's busy schedule. So I hoped you learned something out of this blog post if not I'm sorry, but I'm just so limited in knowledge there is only so much  can write about. Good luck on your journey towards music an I hope you find a better teacher than me because I can teach you nothing, but this.






Friday, May 1, 2015

What In The World ?!!?!!?!!?!!?!!?!!?!! (Time Management)

      I feel like I'm digging myself into a pit so deep that survival is impractical. So far in the twenty percent project Jasmine and I have met twice and all I've learned is a miserable mass of nothing! I mean I have learned notes and I have learned the strings on the violin but I have yet to learn how to play a song on my violin. I have to know how to count, how to bow correctly, how to read the music and count at the same time, and how to finger the notes on my violin, how to pluck the strings the strings correctly, how to tune the violin correctly, perfect the hand position, learn major scales, possibly learn minor scales, get to know famous violinists, know famous pieces for violin, etc. (these plans may change in the future do to a lack or increase in progress).  None of these I know yet, but whence the lesson comes I shall share it with you. Another major issue that is occurring with our project is the lack of warm human blood that is a mentor! Failure in music contaminates my veins like a virus contaminates a cell then bursts forth in an explosion of corruption. Yet the most evasive parts of the project that I will be writing about today are the hardships of different schedules and my recently awful blogging due to a lack of knowledge.
     Jasmine probably has the most abounding schedule out of all the people I have met which jeopardizes our grade on this project, since I know nothing. Because I know nothing and my music source is Jasmine our grade is dependant on her so we have nothing done. Even our videos include a lonesome companionless teenage girl (me) because her partner is too busy to meet up with her! Even though I literally have no plans for any day and just flow with whatever comes it is not her fault I'm not learning, it is mine because I've been to dependant on jasmine. Like my mom always says don't trust anyone but yourself and your abilities, I've never believed in that saying because another carbonated life form has a different skill or ability that you do not have which could improve the situation. Yet I honestly have had so much free time in the past two weeks because teachers didn't give as much homework during AP testing, and I not having any AP classes have had a load of free time in which I had gone mad aka I became insane when I should have been researching music. So It was both our faults mine more so than hers that we might not get a good grade on this project. We will keep on trying to run into each others arms of knowledge until we will fulfill the goal we had sent out to do at the beginning of the twenty percent project.
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     Because of this lack of knowledge these blog posts have been especially hard to write because you cannot write what you don't know so I've been repeating myself constantly and there have only been about four to six blogs that we have needed to post in the past eight weeks. I feel like I'm wandering around an uncharted land blindfolded. Since I have not been taught or have tried to study online the subject of music I cannot share much knowledge with you on the topic at this moment. What I can tell you though group projects can be a lot of hard work especially when it's a long term project because there is so much time and so much denial because of other arrangements that you kind of put that project off to the side for a while. I'm sorry I failed myself, but I'm more sorry I failed you this semester . What I can tell you though is group projects can be a lot of hard work especially when it's a long term project because there is so much time and so much denial because of other arrangements so you kind of put that project off to the side for a while.

     In conclusion a lack of time on both Jasmine and my end has brought us on the road to failure as well as the fact that we live in different areas and my mom doesn't drive so the only place we can meet is in school. There is so little time yet it is so infinite; I often wonder how that is possible because our lives are just a spec on the never ending chart of time. Another problem that I know Jasmine and I as well as many other's have is procrastination and that is ok as long as the end result is worthy, but it may also brings many problems on your journey. I promise that next time I will teach you a skill in the art of music if jasmine and I just make time for each other so that I can learn or I will look something up and share it with you, but I learn better up front rather than from a blinding machine so I apologize in advance if I will  make an undeniably stupid mistake. Until next time hope you learned something and if not go try the helpful appropriate skill you've always wanted to know but never learned.


     
   

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Here Is What I Know

       I don't know much about music, but here goes. So far I have learned that all the notes lie on a staff which starts off with a treble clef and has a certain amount of beats to every measure so far the only song I learned was "Merely Roll along" and is four beats to a measure. I realize that each note is recognized by it's position on the graph and that each quarter rest is one beat of silence as well as each quarter beat is one beat of whatever not  is on the staff (time is everything).  I also learned that a violin has everything to do with the way you hold it. Your pinky touches the metal part at the very end then your next two fingers on the thickest wooden part on the bow then you put your pointer  finger on the higher part of the wood covered in rubber. You hold the violin by the stem at the very top near the area in which you tune the violin. The violin has four strings E A D and G. E creates the highest pitch, A is the second highest, D is the third highest and G creates the lowest pitch on the violin. The notes consist of A through G but non ofter and then they repeat. There are sharps and minors. To every Sharp a minor appears except between B and C as well as E and F. To give you a clearer picture A sharp is equal to B minor and so on. I also found out that there are many scales but I have learned none yet, but when I do I will teach. From this point on my blog posts will be a little off because I don't truly understand the concept of music.
       So the violin is a supposed complex instrument, but the beginning stages for me haven't been that hard especially since Jasmine is such a great teacher. So far I've learned how to play "Hot Cross Buns" and "Marly Roll Along".  Although these two songs are beginners songs it took me fifteen minutes to learn each song so thirty minutes in all. If you watch my youtube videos I hope that you will learn something about music. While the violin sounds beautiful no matter what song is played on it you need commitment and/ or talent to be able to play the violin or any instrument. It takes a lot of practice especially in the beginning and the beginning of the middle stages of learning because you are most likely clueless during that time ( like me now). Jasmine's blog as well as my youtube posts might be able to help you more than I can help you at this moment. Anyway my one hope is for you to be able to learn music by the end of this semester.
       In conclusion music is a complex object that cannot be tamed without practice much like studying and sports, but you need more devotion. The violin while told to be hard to play is not as scary as you would believe the only challenging part of playing the violin is learning how to position your fingers. While Jasmine and my attempt of trying to teach people music to play music might work it is best to take a free course at your school if that is available otherwise you can try to learn from us, but if you have read this blog and are interested please direct you friends to view our youtube channel because our goal is to have five views for each youtube video and we have none for any yet. Thank you!
Jasmine's blog link
http://jasminelikespie.blogspot.com/2015/03/20-project-progress.html
Our youtube account is english2period1 one and a link to our first video is
http://youtu.be/tr3U4-cyAK4

  
     

Thursday, March 19, 2015

We started the twenty percent project. My Partner and my measurable objective is that We are going to create a YouTube channel where we are going to teach people how to play the violin and eventually compose our own song(s). Our goal is to have 5-10 viewers each week. We’re going to post 2 videos per week, and by the end, we will have  24 videos. When Jasmine and I thought about the project we realized that there would be many more challenges than we expected. Today I will talk about the hardship we had trying to find a mentor, learning how to compose, and the fact that I know nothing about music.
We tried to find a mentor because it was a requirement for the twenty% projects. Jasmine first asked the music teacher at our school even though she thought he was kind of mean. Either way in the end he rejected us. Then I tried asking a person only to be rejected. This week we told our english teacher that we had no mentor so he just told us to keep trying so we put our brains together and still couldn't think of anyone else that could or would help us. Then I suggested that she ask her elementary school teacher and since her past teacher’s son is in orchestra with her, she will ask him to ask his father if he could mentor them. If he says no then my mom knows a women that teaches violin and could possibly be our mentor, but if she says no we might need a few more ideas regarding mentors. Image result for violinist
I also literally know nothing about music and that is a major setback although our project’s main point is to teach others about music and how to play it. So it would be easier for those who know nothing about music to learn with me yet it does setback those who do know something about music. Anyway today Jasmine taught me the notes and where they are on my violin it was kind of funny because she knows very little about violin yet she plays five other instruments which is pretty amazing. She has had one dream all her life and that is to become a music teacher I just hope I don’t pose too much of a problem because it is pretty spectacular that she has known what she has wanted to do for this long and she is actually preparing for it which is something I admire since I have no clue as to what I will do when I’m older. I barely know what I want to do with my life now. I travel wherever the wind blows me like a passing breeze, that is what this project feels like to me because I have no clue as to where it is going I’m just following the lead that Jasmine has laid out for me and hopefully I will be domesticated just as did the wolf-dogs our scientific thought to be ancestors domesticated.
Neither Jasmine nor I know how to compose music. We will research it then we will teach it to you just as long as we have it moderately down first which may just decrease the amount of videos we will post on youtube. I've always liked to sing and write lyrics so when we have composing music fully accomplished Jasmine will add the tune of some of the instruments she knows how to play and I will write lyrics and maybe I’ll teach you how to write lyrics as well, but Jasmine and I haven't really discussed that yet. What we do know is that Jasmine and I will use these composing skills to help our friend Anissa create a music video for a part in her project. Music is the sound of nature when no one is listening, because all you have to do is listen to the noises around you to hear the music within your soul.
In conclusion Jasmine and I have our twenty percent project that is at this moment occurring. We will post youtube videos teaching you how to play the violin, how to compose your own music, but most importantly we will teach the basics of music because without that you can’t do a spec with any kind music. Hope you guys retain some knowledge or at least find enjoyment through the videos that we will post on youtube next time I’ll send you a link leading to that website on my blog or you could check out Jasmine's blog because she knows so much more than me regarding I bet if my blog could speak it would respond " Seems like just yesterday you were a part of me. I used to stand so tall. I used to be so strong. ... Now I can't breath. No I can't sleep. I'm barely hanging on."music. I also hope you start listening to your surroundings more often so that you can realize that music is all around you and it is true, all we do is imitate the sounds around us, nothing is an original even if we say we make it our own and that is true for everything not just music.  
    
We started the twenty percent project. My Partner and my measurable objective is that We are going to create a YouTube channel where we are going to teach people how to play the violin and eventually compose our own song(s). Our goal is to have 5-10 viewers each week. We’re going to post 2 videos per week, and by the end, we will have  24 videos. When Jasmine and I thought about the project we realized that there would be many more challenges than we expected. Today I will talk about the hardship we had trying to find a mentor, learning how to compose, and the fact that I know nothing about music.
We tried to find a mentor because it was a requirement for the twenty% projects. Jasmine first asked the music teacher at our school even though she thought he was kind of mean. Either way in the end he rejected us. Then I tried asking a person only to be rejected. This week we told our english teacher that we had no mentor so he just told us to keep trying so we put our brains together and still couldn't think of anyone else that could or would help us. Then I suggested that she ask her elementary school teacher and since her past teacher’s son is in orchestra with her, she will ask him to ask his father if he could mentor them. If he says no then my mom knows a women that teaches violin and could possibly be our mentor, but if she says no we might need a few more ideas regarding mentors. Image result for violinist
I also literally know nothing about music and that is a major setback although our project’s main point is to teach others about music and how to play it. So it would be easier for those who know nothing about music to learn with me yet it does setback those who do know something about music. Anyway today Jasmine taught me the notes and where they are on my violin it was kind of funny because she knows very little about violin yet she plays five other instruments which is pretty amazing. She has had one dream all her life and that is to become a music teacher I just hope I don’t pose too much of a problem because it is pretty spectacular that she has known what she has wanted to do for this long and she is actually preparing for it which is something I admire since I have no clue as to what I will do when I’m older. I barely know what I want to do with my life now. I travel wherever the wind blows me like a passing breeze, that is what this project feels like to me because I have no clue as to where it is going I’m just following the lead that Jasmine has laid out for me and hopefully I will be domesticated just as did the wolf-dogs our scientific thought to be ancestors domesticated.
Neither Jasmine nor I know how to compose music. We will research it then we will teach it to you just as long as we have it moderately down first which may just decrease the amount of videos we will post on youtube. I've always liked to sing and write lyrics so when we have composing music fully accomplished Jasmine will add the tune of some of the instruments she knows how to play and I will write lyrics and maybe I’ll teach you how to write lyrics as well, but Jasmine and I haven't really discussed that yet. What we do know is that Jasmine and I will use these composing skills to help our friend Anissa create a music video for a part in her project. Music is the sound of nature when no one is listening, because all you have to do is listen to the noises around you to hear the music within your soul.
In conclusion Jasmine and I have our twenty percent project that is at this moment occurring. We will post youtube videos teaching you how to play the violin, how to compose your own music, but most importantly we will teach the basics of music because without that you can’t do a spec with any kind music. Hope you guys retain some knowledge or at least find enjoyment through the videos that we will post on youtube next time I’ll send you a link leading to that website on my blog or you could check out Jasmine's blog because she knows so much more than me regarding I bet if my blog could speak it would respond " Seems like just yesterday you were a part of me. I used to stand so tall. I used to be so strong. ... Now I can't breath. No I can't sleep. I'm barely hanging on."music. I also hope you start listening to your surroundings more often so that you can realize that music is all around you and it is true, all we do is imitate the sounds around us, nothing is an original even if we say we make it our own and that is true for everything not just music.